Seriously?! Everything happens for a reason! I literally went back to my first Journal Entry on 10/12/20. Her husband went in the hospital and I needed to take care of my Mom. I was SO SCARED! I didn't know what was going to happen! I always knew I would take care of her - I mean who else would besides me? And because I OWE it to her! She has been the best Mom and lifelong friend that a girl could ask for! Whenever there was an issue or problem in my life - Call Mom. When I'm bored - Call Mom- When I need help - Call Mom . When I need to kill time while I clean my house - CALL MOM! Who's gonna get up at 3AM to go black friday shopping? Mom of course! I mean - she was literally my other half! Who was my champion every single time something happened in my life - MOM - Who was the one who cheered for me when things went my way? MOM - Who loves my husband as much as me? (hubby # 3 - Third time is the CHARM) MOM Does! She actually thanked his Mom for raising such a great man. She loves him - And now we are her life- Me, my hubby, My kids, My grandkids - and her WONDERFUL Caretakers - They are Moms life now.
So back to my first journal entry on 10/12/20 " The first day of the next phase of my life. Everything changes, I am sure I will adapt. I am praying that he recovers and can take care of my Mom with some help. If he doesn't - I know everything will be okay, but I was just getting ready to finish my bedroom! (LOL DRAMATIC) You know I am so set in my ways, maybe this will be good for me - I need rest time - to relax and ride the wave of life. (I follow Abraham-Hicks - look it up - AWESOME STUFF)
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10/25/20 My stomach is in knots. I don't know how to make it stop. I'm not very good at change. I need home - It doesn't matter what home - but I need my stuff. Thank you Universe for being so amazing. (note at bottom: My hero started sleeping here with me after 3 nights!)
3 Nights! 3 days and nights and I was in an absolute TIZZY - But it wasn't the 3 nights - I sleep here 3 nights all the time now - it wasn't the 3 nights - it was the UNKNOWN - I didn't know they had money that was going to give Mom a couple of years. I didn't know that she had $7K per MONTH in long term care insurance. Mom always used to say "It's a process" I need to learn to TRUST what Abraham Hicks says - that Everything ALWAYS Works out for me!
My husband and I have decided its time to use that Insurance Money - I found a beautiful long term care facility with Memory so it will be covered by the policy. It is $9K per month and the apartment is sooooo nice. She can easily afford it with her social security and 2 pensions along with the funds from the sale of her house. All is WELL All is WELL. I explained to Mom on a daily basis that we are going to be getting her a condo - why should I upset her by saying Long term care?! I said - no more yard because we can't keep up with it. I tell her now that her husband is gone the house is too much for us. Mom always said she didn't want to be a burden so she is agreeable.
The apartment is beautiful - We bought her a beautiful bed set we are putting it together now so when a unit becomes available she will be used to it. My daughters are going to help me set up her apartment like a mini version of her home. All her best stuff! I am going to buy an electronic frame to put on her wall. I am going to start snapping photos of her pictures. She can have her alexa, her tv, and she can have her cameras so I can peek in on her whenever I want. It has a fridge and pantry I can stock with her favorite goodies. I can visit her - I can bring her out - I can sleep over! They will try to get her to participate - but if she chooses not to they will let her stay in her apartment - and just keep attempting all day long.
I'm going to create my future as I always have with my words (Abraham-Hicks) Mom is going to adjust so well. Mom is going to make lots of friends. Mom is going to THRIVE. I am going to be a happy daughter coming to visit and pick her up to go shopping. I am going to find a job in a gym in the same town so I am inspired every day to be and stay healthy and fit - and I will go see my Mom after work every day.
No need for dramatics - EVERYTHING Always works out for me - and everything ALWAYS works out for my beautiful Mother. Thank you God for always making that so! I am so grateful.